Entries for June, 2004

June 7th, 2004

death to all!

i'm impressed. i've never been irritated this much before. and by the most likely person to irritate me. no, the two most likely people to irritate me. damn, this is impressive. i'm lucky my verbal sparring partner's back, but then i haven't come across her online that often. plus my cellphone just left me. so i'm incommunicado except for the landlines and the net. wotta life.

at least univ's going to take a bit of my attention away.
Posted by kilawinguwak at 01:30 AM | do go on

June 8th, 2004

multitask

i'm back at univ. and i applied for a job.

do i seriously think i can handle all of this shit at once?

i doubt it.

let's see what happens next.
Posted by kilawinguwak at 03:01 AM | 5 hoodwinked

June 12th, 2004

wow. impressive character art.


What Marauder are you?

Created by legomyelfboy with help from goleafsgo
Posted by kilawinguwak at 08:19 PM | do go on

June 15th, 2004

whoosh

ach. mine recent posts have suffered from lackluster nonchalance on my part. my sincerest apologies.




so what have i been up to? well, i'm getting more sleep, for one thing. been meeting up with the great bruce jerome for another. but mostly skool is taking up a whole shitload of my time. so much for my waking life.

however, at night, i put on a suit of blue armor, hoist a cannon on my arm, and run around makati destroying manic robots and defeating supervillains.

right. fuck.




why the hell can't i come up with anything worthwhile, dammit?! man, like levi said. mental winter. and tiger's don't even hibernate.
Posted by kilawinguwak at 02:28 AM | 3 hoodwinked

June 17th, 2004

me and girls with makeup

i like girls who can look good with very little makeup. i don't understand the sense of makeup at all; ok, so it's there to "enhance the beauty that's already there" but i mean, sometimes too much is too much.

however, i love girls who know how to use makeup to their advantage.

and why do i write this?

psychology class. bruce is once again fucking absent (nothing new there). i have a headache, a prequel to my fever last thursday (YES, i spent the whole of thursday in bed, ingesting tablet after tablet of biogesic, trying to get better and cursing mi fievre for disabling my allowance for a day). the professor is trying (unsuccessfully) to liven up the class discussion. fucked up teacher. fucked up class. dunces all.

i stare in front of me. and vavang!

she was sitting there. she had style. her eyes had outlines of cobalt blue. her smile (when i talked to her) came as naturally as a newborn's cough.

she was beautiful.
Posted by kilawinguwak at 05:41 AM | 19 hoodwinked

June 22nd, 2004

Streaming Ecstatic Word Charade

Here is an attempt to write.

As all attempts go, I should
think that every particle of insight
would be thrown as a bullet into the nether of supernovas

to tap the somnolent king of sleep
and wake him from his slumber.

But what would i say when i do?

when his gestulating jaw ceases
the crunching, grinding, undulating fro and to;
displeases him, i see i do, to shatter his ethereal rest

but then this was just an attempt.
a fitful yet pitiful, arbitrarial thrust

at creativity

the machine's still turning, however.


you will notice i never did change it. that is because it is finished. nothing else will come out. the machinery has stopped turning when the cogs of time shrank past the nasty little churchmouse singing in his corner, with a hymnbook full of nasty and prayers so angsty, the wonders and fulfilments of a second past denies the knowledge, the infinite glory, the aeon flux of industrious pretend-creativity. now i lay myself down, i rest i rest, i sleep i sleep, i fall down the galactic star-floundering universe of my mind, drowning like a fish, upstream like trout.



like trout.
i shout
i magnify and specify
swimmingly
unfalteringly
against the flow.
pen on ink
stone on the mill
the guillotine
on the death-man's hands.
just.
a.
job.
against the flow.



And

it takes

less

time

to

write

a

paragraph

than

a

single

word.

Currently feeling: constrained
Posted by kilawinguwak at 04:06 AM | 2 hoodwinked